I'm at a lost of words right now, its sad how people can just walk out of your life. But for some reason, those who walk out of my life come right back in and wish that they had done differently. I'm a person who forgives, who embraces them, and does everything in her power to make sure they are happy. But what happens when that one person who hurt you the most is the one person who regrets it the most. Its so easy to forgive, but its not easy to forget. I will continue to be the same person, the same loving person I was the entire time no matter what.
I ask the Lord to please make me strong at this time. When all the feelings rush back in to continue loving and to never forget that Jesus you love me every time I mess up, you love me every time I turned away, you loved me for me no matter what the situation was and thats what I live by Jesus. I will put aside the hurt and I will continue to open my arms and accept, accept the apologies, the regrets, the lost love that was once there.
People move on in life, I've moved on in life but my past will always be a great part of me and the people in it will always be a part of me. What if is always the question people have but I cant lay on that phrase I cant wonder what would have happened but accept that the Lord has brought me here and now for a reason for a purpose..I just need to work harder to figure out what that purpose is. So Lord please help me in this journey..make me strong.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
The Power Of Prayer
I had a job interview today at a Television Station that I have been wanting to get work at. I finally got the call that they wanted me to come in to meet me and to take a typing test to see my typing speed and accuracy. Last night I went on the typing test website and wa taking test after test after test not being able to pass a 43. I guess thats still good but 43 was my best score in like 10 tries. I was really nervous about taking this test because I know that I am a fast typer and worthy of the job but when it comes to testing me I'm not as good.
Last night before I went to bed I asked the Lord to please help me in this time of need, to give me the mobility to be able to type to the speed and accuracy needed to fullfill the position. On my first try I got a 45 and on my second try I got a 49..with an gross percentage of 50. I never thought that i would be able to reach that, or to be able to do that especially under the pressure. But with the help of the Lord, with my faith, and with the belief that I could do it, I was able to and I am very thankful to the lord for that.
Last night before I went to bed I asked the Lord to please help me in this time of need, to give me the mobility to be able to type to the speed and accuracy needed to fullfill the position. On my first try I got a 45 and on my second try I got a 49..with an gross percentage of 50. I never thought that i would be able to reach that, or to be able to do that especially under the pressure. But with the help of the Lord, with my faith, and with the belief that I could do it, I was able to and I am very thankful to the lord for that.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
My First Post
I've been a blogger since December 26, 2003, thats almost 5 years. It hasn't been on this blogging website and I mostly write about my own life in general. The things I do, what I've been going through, the hard times, the good times, you know everything that you would write in a personal diary except I do it on the internet for others to read.
At the age of 4 my parents put me in Catholic School where I spent 9 years of my life, K-8th grade. I must say it was a wonderful experience and I learned a lot in the years I was there and I met a lot of amazing people and inspirations. But I always had trouble in my religion classes, I still can't figure out why I always had so much trouble. It wasn't until recently that I realized that I don't think I had a very strong connection with the Lord and I didn't understand it. The reason I feel like this is because recently I have had that strong connection with the Lord.
The month of December was a rough month for my friend Justin and I. We both went through separate breakups that really hurt us and we found each other for help. I remember being in Justin's truck just driving and he asked me, "will you come to church with me on Sunday?" He said he felt like he needed to start going more and reconnect with the Lord. So on December 30th 2007, Justin and I went to Cornerstone Church in Anaheim. He had gone as a junior high kid when they were located in Fullerton. I still remember that day as if it just happened, the feelings, the connection, the want and need to return. We decided to come to Tuesday Night Bible Study also.
Its only been about 4 months since I've been going but I have felt a huge turn around in my life. In the things I do, in my attitude, in my maturity. I never felt this want to go to church, to go to bible study, to learn more about the Lord, to share with others. I know my faith is getting deeper and stronger.
Recently I put myself on a year Bible Reading Plan and I am trying my hardest to stick to it. With my busy life its really hard but I'm trying really hard to put my faith as my #1 priority. I want to use this blog to talk about my journey and my walk with the Lord. To write about the things I learn, the things I do, and the things I read. Hopefully this blog will be as up to date as the one that I started writing in about 5 years ago.
At the age of 4 my parents put me in Catholic School where I spent 9 years of my life, K-8th grade. I must say it was a wonderful experience and I learned a lot in the years I was there and I met a lot of amazing people and inspirations. But I always had trouble in my religion classes, I still can't figure out why I always had so much trouble. It wasn't until recently that I realized that I don't think I had a very strong connection with the Lord and I didn't understand it. The reason I feel like this is because recently I have had that strong connection with the Lord.
The month of December was a rough month for my friend Justin and I. We both went through separate breakups that really hurt us and we found each other for help. I remember being in Justin's truck just driving and he asked me, "will you come to church with me on Sunday?" He said he felt like he needed to start going more and reconnect with the Lord. So on December 30th 2007, Justin and I went to Cornerstone Church in Anaheim. He had gone as a junior high kid when they were located in Fullerton. I still remember that day as if it just happened, the feelings, the connection, the want and need to return. We decided to come to Tuesday Night Bible Study also.
Its only been about 4 months since I've been going but I have felt a huge turn around in my life. In the things I do, in my attitude, in my maturity. I never felt this want to go to church, to go to bible study, to learn more about the Lord, to share with others. I know my faith is getting deeper and stronger.
Recently I put myself on a year Bible Reading Plan and I am trying my hardest to stick to it. With my busy life its really hard but I'm trying really hard to put my faith as my #1 priority. I want to use this blog to talk about my journey and my walk with the Lord. To write about the things I learn, the things I do, and the things I read. Hopefully this blog will be as up to date as the one that I started writing in about 5 years ago.
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